So, maybe it's been an terrible, awful, no-good, horribly rotten day (as per that book/movie with the character named Alexander).
My day? It was pretty standard for CPE, meaning that I felt vulnerable, tired, content, tearful, useful. This empathetic listening really is for me; I enjoy connecting with people on a daily basis (too bad it means that for these people, something scary/unexpected/tragic had to happen to land them inside Nationwide Children's). At the end of today, I feel peaceful and lighthearted. Some days, peaceful is the last thing I feel or could ever imagine feeling again. Which is why I made a list.
Here's a list of things I made for myself to remind myself that a bad day doesn't have the final say:
1. Remember--you are truly loved by God (the Great Spirit), your family, and friends.
2. Even when feeling awkward, your true love and care for others is present and visible.
3. Your body is beautiful and useful. SACRED.
4. When you feel like you don't deserve it, God loves all of you.
5. Be open--there is immense possibility for growth in vulnerability.
6. Give yourself 5 deep breathes. Stretch.
7. Take a few minutes outside. Pause.
8. Make time to balance a hard day or situation with a time to bask in love and friendship or solitude.
9. Treat yourself to something small. (macchiato?)
10. Take a walk or bike ride. Run.
11. Wear a dress. Twirl.
12. Say fuck. It's allowed.