John
12:20-33
Now among those who went
up to worship at the festival were some Greeks. They came to Philip,
who was from Bethsaida in Galilee, and said to him, "We wish to
see Jesus." Philip went and told Andrew; then Andrew and Philip
went and told Jesus.
Jesus answered them,
"The
hour has come for the Son of Humanity to be glorified.
Very truly, I tell you, unless a grain of wheat falls into the earth and dies, it remains just a single grain; but if it dies, it bears much fruit.
Those who love their life lose it, and those who hate their life in this world will keep it for eternal life.
Whoever serves me must follow me, and where I am, there will my servant be also. Whoever serves me, the Father will honor.
"Now my soul is troubled. And what should I say--' Father, save me from this hour'? No, it is for this reason that I have come to this hour.
Father, glorify your name."
Very truly, I tell you, unless a grain of wheat falls into the earth and dies, it remains just a single grain; but if it dies, it bears much fruit.
Those who love their life lose it, and those who hate their life in this world will keep it for eternal life.
Whoever serves me must follow me, and where I am, there will my servant be also. Whoever serves me, the Father will honor.
"Now my soul is troubled. And what should I say--' Father, save me from this hour'? No, it is for this reason that I have come to this hour.
Father, glorify your name."
Then a voice came from
heaven,
"I
have glorified it, and I will glorify it again."
The crowd standing there heard it and said that it was thunder. Others said,
The crowd standing there heard it and said that it was thunder. Others said,
"An
angel has spoken to him."
Jesus answered,
"This
voice has come for your sake, not for mine.
Now is the judgment of this world;
Now is the judgment of this world;
now the ruler of this
world will be driven out.
And I, when I am
lifted up from the earth, will draw all people to myself."
He said this to indicate
the kind of death he was to die.
A
saying I have been hearing lately is “Don't judge your insides by
the looks of other people's outsides!” This advice seems
increasingly relevant in a world in which we can see so much of the
activities of other people. We scroll through Facebook on our
laptops, cell phones, and iPads and witness other people sharing
pictures of their trip to Europe, people with big smiles while
hugging relatives or friends, breathtaking hiking views, or even the
brunch spot a person tried last Saturday. We do all of this peering
into the daily lives of others while sitting alone with our
technology screens.
We can
do this comparing ourselves to the outsides of others while at coffee
hour at worship, hearing about the accomplishments of the people
around us all the while holding the anxieties and insecurities that
linger within our souls. It is stunning to celebrate the joys of
witnessing the people around us shine with the gifts that God has
given them; it is another thing entirely to hold ourselves to
impossible standards of happiness and fulfillment when we compare our
worries of not being good enough to the smoothed out edges of the
person next to us. The redeeming piece of this is that people look
shiny, admirable, and normal until you get to know them well enough
to see their unique peculiarities; we are all
complex creatures full of worries, gifts, grief, yearning, and people
we deeply care for. While it's easy to look
at others to see the shiny, happy outsides, I find it much more
interesting to open myself up to show my insides, or the unique
parts, so that I can connect with other people's insides.
This
past fall I took a course called Transforming Christian Theology. My
professor began our first class together by showing us our class
mascot, which was a Jesus live action figure. This was the deluxe
Jesus, wearing a white robe and sandals, comes complete with bread
and wine to share, glow in the dark hands to signify the miracles
Jesus performs, and a whipping lash for chasing unwanted people out
of the temple. This action figure for me signifies the shiny,
outside parts of Jesus that crowds of people flock to in order to see
what Jesus is capable of.
In the
text we are delving into today, we hear about Greek people that
desire to see Jesus. As people were preparing for the festival of
the Passover, there was a buzz about who Jesus is and amazement
surrounding the recent raising of Lazarus from the dead. The Jewish
Pharisees are astonished and fearful about the potential of this
leader Jesus. People have heard of the teachings and miracles of
Jesus and naturally want to see him. As hearers of this story, we
can understand the yearning to experience the awe of being near a
person who is making a difference in this world. When you feel love
radiating from the caring heart of someone or are wowed by the
intelligence of a person, it's natural to want to see more of who
they are. We want to see Jesus; we long to
hear the teachings and witness the miracles. We yearn to be with the
Light of the World.
When
Jesus hears the request of the Greeks to see him, he shows us that
experiencing the person of Jesus is much more complicated than the
charismatic exterior. In this text we are given a gift of being able
to see a glimmer of the not-so-shiny inside thoughts of Jesus. When
we say that we wish to see Jesus, laden within that hope is the
assumption that if we experience the person of Jesus, we will be
changed. Jesus hears the longing of the people while also knowing
that his death was near. How will people be changed if the embodied
presence of God is not walking around and proclaiming for our ears to
hear and eyes to see?
We do
not know if the Greeks ever meet Jesus face-to-face; instead we are
given parallels to how we can live our lives in this world as
embodied creatures. We long to see Jesus; in this text we are shown
a piece of his insides. We see a person who is struggling with his
human longings of this world. I imagine a Jesus that replies by
saying: “You wish to see me? You know, I wish I could continue to
see myself here too, but that is not the path that is meant to be.”
Jesus pushes away the fascination and awe that
people place upon him as the Blessed One but exposes the gritty,
terrifying task of being crucified for the purpose of turning the
world upside down. Jesus does not proudly
say what lies in store for him but instead shares how troubled his
soul is; he wonders about asking to be spared from the hour of being
killed. A Jesus that questions and agonizes over the immense call
towards death is a human that I certainly understand. The
insides of Jesus are the parts that make this a Gospel that permeates
across boundaries and cultures—we can stand beside a Savior that is
scared, troubled, and lonely because at some points in our lives we
have been that person. That sense of being
troubled is exactly the feeling that Jesus wants to connect with us
in.
Jesus
strongly exclaims the role that we all have in this world; we
have come here to be human bodies that will transform into something
much bigger than we can imagine. When
Jesus
speaks of how a grain of wheat falls to the ground to die in order to
blossom into bountiful wheat, we see the beginnings of the bodily
pain and death that is quickly approaching. This inevitable chain of
events towards crucifixion serves an immense purpose; the body of
Jesus dies and the raising up of the body of Christ is a
transformation of what was destroyed. Jesus embraces the call of
death not without worries or fear but because of the promise of
radical change.
In
the death of this grain of wheat and in the death of Jesus, a new
community of Christ is born. This is a
space that encompasses much more than we can creatively imagine; this
body of Christ is what makes our souls tingle.
On this earth, we wish to see Jesus; we are shown a Christ that is
much more complex that the disciples or we are able to comprehend.
We are given a Savior that lived embodied as an Arabic, Jewish, and
Aramaic-speaking man that is transformed as Christ to be the wisdom
of the world that speaks through women and men of many cultures and
languages. When Jesus speaks to us in this text, he is echoing the
proclamation of the prophet Isaiah who says: “See,
I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it?
I am making a way in the wilderness and streams in the wasteland.”
We
are given a glimmer of the explosive
imagination that Christ creates in our world.
When Jesus proclaims that those who love their life will lose it, I
believe it is vital to make a distinction between what it means to be
an active embodied being in this world and clinging to the
assumptions of what our lives should be like. In a world that highly
values narrow definitions of success, it is difficult to avoid
slipping into viewing ourselves only for what our outsides look like.
It's easy to create solutions for how to pad ourselves in security
from the pain and uncertainty that comes with being a beautifully
flawed human. Jesus is calling us to
peer into ourselves; we are called to begin to critically examine the
deep yearnings and questions we have.
When
we engage deeply in the call that Christ has for us, there will be
pieces of us that will fall away into the earth as we learn how to
bear fruit together as people of faith. What dreams linger within
you, bursting to be lived out? Jesus does not decide to die for the
sake of all people but he heeds a burning call from God that was
already inside of him. Each of us brings gifts and particular
interests that equip us to be servants of Christ; what pieces inside
of you are being called forward to create change? How will this
community fall into the earth and be transformed by engaging with our
hope of new life? We are called to step
out together as brave, vulnerable people that proclaim our worries,
our yearnings, and our creative vision for how we live as Christ in
this world.